"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." Proverbs 16:9
Looking back on my year in South Africa there are many memories that fill my mind and touch deep places in my heart. Sitting here in Texas, most of me aches to go back to those memories and re-live them. Now having been back in the States for several months, I realize these memories and lessons will forever be part of who I am.
One memory that is fresh within me is actually not of the past year...it's from another place and time in southern Africa.
It was July 2008 when a sweet friend, Whitney, and I visited our missionary friends (Jako and Amber Joubert, Mission of Love Orphanage) living deep in the bush of Africa. It was late at night, and Jako was swerving back and forth through branches and tall grass in the bush, driving the truck back "home" to Mukamba. The only thing you could see in the darkness was wherever the headlights flashed. To say the ride was bumpy is an understatment, in fact; Jako was probably making his own road since there was not one. Leaving a place in the middle of nowhere, we were now returning to Jako and Amber's home, ironically also in the middle of nowhere! We had showed the Jesus Film in the local Tonga language to people in another village, which was most likely their first and only movie they ever saw and perhaps we were the first and only white people they encountered.
We were tired. The physical exhaustion from setting up the projector and meeting new people combined with the emotional exhaustion from praying together throughout the movie for people's response was overwhelming. I climbed into the backseat of the truck in a vegetable-like state where my mind was simply...blank. Somehow a guy from a visiting team had energy to talk to Jako about his life as a cross cultural missionary. My mind and ears drifted in and out of the conversation, but I heard something Jako said that I'll never forget. When asked if he had plans to leave that part of Zambia and the ministry there, Jako plainly stated, he planned on living in Mukamba forever, if it was God's will.
These words sank down in me and are still sinking years later. What struck me most about Jako's comment and attitude was a selfless obedience and an enduring passion for what God was doing and yet to do where he believed he was called--a tiny village in southern Zambia with many needy orphans. It is this memory that I think of today and its lesson I remember as I think back on my past experiences in southern Africa. Where is it and what is it that God has called me to today? Am I serving Him with obedience and passion? Can I honestly answer like Jako said, "I'm going to serve God where He has called me in selfless obedience and enduring passion forever"? Period.